I have a very unproductive habit of lying in bed at the end of the day, and going over and over in my head, all the ways that I fell short that day. I know. It sounds very self-defeating, and it is. The thing is, I start out my day so full of ambition, and determination to be the world's most patient mom, to mold young minds, to expand my own, the make a mark in my community, to change the world. Morning is always bright with the possibilities of the day, and that light quickly begins to dim as the day rolls on.
I often find myself focusing on where I fall short. I know that this is the wrong point of view to take. I think it's ok to fall short. That is why we have tomorrow, right? Maybe, if I look the right way, my days, (well, most days), have just as many moments where I do something right.
I need to shift my focus. Yesterday, I was determined to focus on what I'm doing right.
As is often the case, my day didn't go exactly as I planned. I spent the majority of the morning sitting at the kitchen table, deep in conversation with my two teenage girls, about a timely issue in our family. After our conversation, when I realized how much time I had spent just sitting, and how I hadn't been productive in the way I had planned for the morning, my first instinct was to feel guilty. Then, with a firm determination to focus on what I was doing right, I shifted my focus. I had just spent over an hour talking and laughing and connecting with my kids. I hadn't been productive in the way that I planned, but I had been productive.
This wasn't so hard.
The afternoon proved busy and rushed, and we ended up sitting down to dinner at a very European time. Eating dinner close to the time that I should have been getting my kids ready for bed, could easily have brought on a classic case of mom guilt, but again I shifted my focus. I didn't have dinner ready at 5:00, but I was surrounded by my family, talking and sharing a meal, and said meal even included a whole lot of vegetables! Focusing on my small victories, instead of on my shortcomings felt amazing.
Here's to more days spent focusing on what I do right, and expanding my comfort zone to include being comfortable with myself, my progress, and exactly where I am each day.
Today's a new day, let's make it purposeful!
Kara
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